Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Big Brother episode 22

Wind blowing through June's hair.
June thinking: Him going out with Shika. So what's the fucking problem?
Then someone came to her.
Voice: Hey June.
She turn. It was Jaron.
Jaron: Come on. Go inside and finish up your food.
June: I wanna take some fresh air. If you're such in a hurry, you can just go and eat up and go to your class.
Jaron: No. That's not what I meant. I'm...I'm really worried about you.
June: Oh really?
Then June turn to Jaron.
June: Well, if that's true, then you should be understanding how the fuck I'm feeling right this moment.
Jaron: Well, to tell you the truth, I don't know. And for your informtation, I have no idea why are you angry all of a sudden. Why not you just tell me if that makes you happy.
June thinking: Argh, this guy is really useless.
June: You know what? Forget it. I'm really glad that you're not my boyfriend. Because I wouldn't want any boyfriend which is soooooooooo blur like you! Hmph.
Then she walk pass Jaron.
Jaron: Where are you going?
June: To finish up my food you moron.
Jaron thinking: Yeah. Finish up her food. I really don't get her.
After class, June wanted to see Shika so badly and she has no idea why she wants to see her either. But anyway, she found Shika and went towards her.
June: Hey Shika.
Shika was taking her books out of the locker and turn to see who was calling her.
Shika: Hey.
June: Hi. Um...
Shika: Is there anything wrong?
June: Sorry but....can you tell me why you asked my brother to go out with you?
Shika; Huh?
June: I know. I know he is not suppose to tell me. It is not his fault really. It was me who pester him to tell me. So...why?
June: You like him?
Shika: Huh? No...I...I mean..
June: It's okay Shika. You can tell me. I won't scream or get mad.
Shika: No...that's not the problem. I'm scared that you'll tell him.
June: No I won't. Serious. I promise.
Shika: Um..okay. Well...yeah...I him. Just a little bit for now.
June: I see.
Shika: Please. Don't tell him. I won't.
June thinking: WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sHE LIKES HIM!!!?
June: I won't.
Shika: Thank you. So...what do you think? What should I wear?
June: Oh..that, you don't need to worry Shika. I know him. He always wear that same old jacket and nothing but black, so you know what? You should just wear normal stuff liek you usually wear.
Shika; Serious?
June: Yeah. Don't you even realise that he always wears black all the time? I have no idea what's up with his mind. Black, black, black all the way.
Shika: I'm sure there's a reason behind it.
June: Yeah. The reason is because he is a rocker? Oh pu--leeeese!
Shika: (Giggle)
June: What?
Shika; You guys....are just so cute sometimes. Like a real brother and sister.
June: But you know something? Just to tell you something. Don't expect much from this guy. He is a very blur guy. So, if you want to tell him something, be straight forward with him okay?
Shika; Do I need to do that?
June; Sure you do. Maybe you can even tell him directly that you like him.
June thinking: Man, I better shut my mouth.
Shika: Huh? Uh...
June: Just kidding. Alright, I have to go now. See ya around Shika and luck..
Shika; Thank you...I guess.
Then June just walk away./ There's a little tears straming down her face and again she has no idea why. At that night, June was thinking so much things. Why did she even help Jaron up with Shika if she doesn't like the fact that he and Shika being together? Then suddenly her phone ring.
June: Hello?
Jaron: Hey sis.
June: Uh...yea?
Jaron: I just wanna let you know that can you go back by yourself tomorrow? I have...
June: I know. Plans with Shika.
Jaron: Yeah.
June: Yeah. Don't worrry about it.
Jaron: But I still can fetch you.
June: If you fetch me, I have no transport back home. I 'll just drive to college tomorrow. Have fun. Bye.
Without waiting him to say goodbye and all, June just hang up.
June thinnking: What the hell is wrong with me?
The next day, June went to college by herself and as usual, she on her radio inher car full blast and speed off to college. When she reach there, she saw something. She saw Jaron and Shika together. Talking and laughing. She park her car and just walk pass them. Jaron saw her and catch up with her.
Jaron: Hey June.
June thinking: June? Did he said June?
June turn.
June: Yes? What can I do for you Jaron?
Jaron: Whoah. I never hear you call me up by that name for such a long time.
June: That's funny because I haven't heard you saying my name either.
Jaron: Okay. What's up with you? All of a sudden.
June: Nothing. I just wanna get to my class fast and you know what? You shouldn't just leave Shika over there. Bye.
Jaron just let her go. He knew something is wrong but no idea what.
Set By
- Jessica Tan -

So many things happened

Hey all people out there whom had read my blog and followed my story for such a long time. Really appreciate that you guys are still interested in my daily life.
There's been so many things happened in my life this past few days and I seriously have no time to write and post anything up in my blog. So sorry for not updating you guys for quite sometime. Anyway, I'll just summarize what has happened to me this past few weeks. Ok, now where do I start? Hmmm...
Well, it all started out last tuesday. I was really stressed out because I'm working at 1utama in you guys know where, and they are paying me like shit. Thta's because I'm only working two days per week. And that's because THE SCHEDULE said so. Just because I can't work at night, and that's what I get. And the stupid bluddy boss is not giving me and reasonable explanation on why he is putting me in this sort of schedule. And ended up that my salary turns out to be not a salary at all. You kow how much? RM 300+. And that seriously sucks. That day I decided that I want to end my life just like that. And the other problem is my boyfriend. I didn't want to listen anything he said is because he never and will never understand how we normal people will be thinking because he has all the money. Even if he is having financial problems, I'm sure there will still be coming from his parents. Unlike me. He gave me advices but some reason, I just can't take his advice. I don't know why. I just felt like he has no right to give me advices in this sort of situation. And then, my big brother which is Afif, he gave me some advices and I followed his advice. And just because of that, my boyfriend thought that I have feelings for him and he wanted to break up with me just because he felt like he is useless and all.
I have no idea what is his problem. It is TRUE, that I didn't love him so much anymore at first. That is because of the way he treated me this past few months. I'm not very happy with it and I really hated the fact that I am actually his girlfriend to tell you guys frankly. I always think that I'm the most unluckiest girl. People do have feelings. Same goes foro me. I do have feelings and I'm actually fed up with his attitude treating me like a piece of shit. So that's why I got fed up, and never return his love anymore and as days goes by, he realise it. And when he loves me so much, and I never response back, he wants to break up with me. All I know is that, he really need to learn more stuff in relationship because his way sucks. And then what makes him change his mind was when I called him up on tuesday and told him that I wanna say goodbye. And he asked why and I said I wanna kill myself. And that makes him think that I actually still DO NEED him.
After that, that night itself, he came to my house and together with Afif, we went out and he gave me some money which I didn't want to accept it. After that, a miracle happened. Inspidea called me up. A company. They asked me to come to interview and I have a job as AN ANIMATOR!! Woo Hoo!!!~~ I was shocked. Very shocked actually. And then when that happened, I can see that my luck is about to change. The thing I know is that I have this job but not yet started. But whatever it is, I will try my best to work there as long as I could. It can even take as long as I live. This is what I've always wanted. To be an animator and now is here. I will not let this opportunity go to waste.
And then on thursday, my big brother and Herman on that same particular date and day, told me that they love me. Afif told me he loved me and Herman asked me to be his girl back. I was like thinking, what date is today? Both malay guys wants me?
But as faras I know, if Herman and Afif is a chinese, I will definitely and I will say it again, definitely choose one of them. To tell you guys honestly, I don't really want my boyfriend to spend me money. I just need him to care for me when I love him. Jimmy which is my boyfriend has taken me for granted during that time. So, Sorry la. Ok la, have to go. That's what actually happened ler. Anyway, ciao. Now working wor. I'll be starting work on 1st of August. Wish me luck.

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

Big Brother Episode 21

June: I have a wonderful outing today. Thanks for everything.
Jaron: Sure.
June: I'll wait for your call when you reach home okay?
Jaron: Sure.
June: Bye.
Jaron: Bye.
Then June went out from the car. After that, she went in her house and then lean on her door. She just couldn't beleive that she and Jaron were on the ferris wheel but that isn't the point. All she know is that she felt something weird on that ferris wheel. Something like a spark between both of them. June quickly call up Jamie. And she told Jamie everything.
Jamie: What you mean?
June: You know what I mean. I felt something.
Jamie: Maybe you're just over reacting,
June: No Jamie. I'm teeling you that I really felt something. Or maybe he felt something.
Jamie: Girl, you know you fall in love too fast.
June: What? I do not.
Jamie: Okay. So you're sure that you're over him already?
June: Him?
Jamie: Yeah....Halbert.
June paused for a moment.
June: You're right. I do fall in love with guys very fast.
Jamie: Oops. I didn't mean to bring that up. Sorry. Just forget I asked.
June:'s fine. Um..listen, I have to go now. CHat other time.
Jamie: You're sure you're fine?
June: Yeah. I'm all cool.
Jamie: Alright then. Ciao girl.
June: Ciao.
Then June hang up. Then after that, Jaron smsed her.
Jaron's smsed: Knock knock. Ring ring. I'm hooooommmee.
June giggled at the sms. Then she went to sleep. The next day, Jaron called her up.
Jaron: Hello?
June: Hello?
Jaron: Hey sis. You ready?
June: Huh? Ready? What day is today?
Jaron: Monday.
June: Oh shoot. Man, I late?
Jaron: Nope. I just call you up 1 hour earlier. Coz I know that you sure overslept.
June: Hehe. Thank you. Okay. I'm all up now.
Jaron: Alright. Get ready. I'm on my way now.
June: Sure. Bye.
Jaron: Bye.
Then June went and take her bath and she was very happy after Jaron called her. After 1 hour after that, he came and she went inside his car. And they went. After that, when they reach college, and after they get down from the car, Shika was waiting for Jaron for something.
June: Hey brother...I..
Shika: Um..excuse me Jaron.
Jaron and June look at Shika.
Shika: I'm sorry June but can I talk to Jaron alone?
June: secretive hah? Well, it's alright. Take your time. I'll see you at lunch time.
Jaron: Okay.
June: Bye.
Jaron: Bye.
Then June went off.
Shika: You both look very close.
Jaron: Why shouldn't we? We are brothers and sisters.
Shika: Um..Jaron? Can you do me a favour?
Jaron: Sure. What is it?
Shika: mean...can you go out with me?
Jaron: Huh?
Shika: I know. I know it is weird and all. But...can we?
Jaron: Sure. That shouldn't be a problem but why?
Shika: Wht? Can't I go out with you?
Jaron: No. That's not what I meant. It's just all of a sudden.
Shika: I.....I don't know. After that you and know...we don't have our practice thingie...I kinda miss you, and I have no idea when can we have that opportunity anymore. You know? Something like that.
Jaron; Oh..You missed me huh?
Shika blush.
Jaron: Hahaha. You're cute?
Shika: Huh? Cute?
Jaron: You know....cute. You're blushing aren't you?
Shika shout: No! Who says I am!?
Jaron: Okay okay. Sheeeeeish.
Shika: You know...just forget that I asked okay?
Shika wanted to walk away when Jaron grab her arm.
Jaron: Hey. Shika.
Shika: WHat?
Jaron: Oh come on. Can't you take a joke?
Shika: As a matter of fact, I can't. So what are you gonna do about it?
Jaron: Ok, look, I'm sorry. Sigh....sure. There's no problem going out with you. I'm happy to go out with such a pretty girl like you.
Shika blush again.
Jaron: So....when you wanna go out?
Shika: about tomorrow? After college?
Jaron: Hm...tomorrow my class is up till 3.00 p.m...yeah sure...No problem with me.
Shika: Okay. See ya.
Shika walk away from Jaron a little bit and then turn and said...
Shika: Thank you.
Then she turn and quickly walk away. Jaron was just smilling to himself. At break time, he met up with June. They bought their food and went and sit down and begin talking.
June: So...?
Jaron: What? What's with that look?
June: I don't know. You know...what happened this morning with you and Shika?
Jaron: Uh-huh. What's wrong with that?
June: Why did she want to talk to you personally?
Jaron: Oh...nothing.
June: Nothing? I don't believe is nothing.
Jaron: Look, she wanted to talk to me personally. So...there's a reason why. So if I tell you, it wouldn't be personal anymore.
June: Hmph. I get it. Now there's some other girls who are much more important than me.
Jaron: I didn't say that. Oh come on. Since when did you even care how much important I am to you?
June: You seriously asking me that question?
Jaron: Um...
June: Man. You're such a jerk sometimes.
Jaron: Hey....why do you like to call me a jerk?
June: Cause you are.
Jaron: I'm not. And I'l lnever will be.
June: Whatever. Anyway, come on. Quick.
Jaron: What?
June: Tell me. What she said?
Jaron: Nothing. It is not such a big deal. She just asked me to go ouy with her. Okay?
June: Oh...And....what did you say?
Jaron: I said....sure.
June: I see.
Jaron: Satisfied?
June: You're crazy if you think I'm satisfied.
Jaron: What? You told me to tell you and now you're calling me crazy?
June: I just need to get some fresh air. See you later.
Then she get up and walk away.
Jaron: Hey. Sis.
Jaron thinking: What's with her? Man, I don't understand girls. Their so hard to understand.

Set By
- Jessica Tan -